Over the last few years, while trying to build happiness into my life again, I have learnt to look after my spirituality. Back when I was studying and still going through my low period, a classmate, who I didn’t know at all, approached me and asked to meet privately as there were people trying to contact me. I wasn’t much into spirituality back then, but agreed to meet her anyway. She ended up telling me things about myself that no-one could have known.
She mentioned an image of an elderly man and a young boy together, catching monarch butterflies in a garden. The elderly man she was referring to was my Gramps, Leo, who has now passed on. My Gramps was my best friend when I was a child, and we would catch monarch butterflies in a net then release them. I understand it might not be for everybody, but since that experience, spirituality is something I’ve made sure not to neglect any longer. Nowadays, everywhere I go, I feel my grandfather with me for friendship, guidance and protection. I feel like I have a spiritual connection with him, alongside the rest of my spirit team.
Another big thing for me was what I call ‘finding myself.’ I use this term to describe the realisation that it’s OK to be in solitude for a time. I really enjoy other people’s company and always will, but for a large part of my life I couldn’t bare to be alone for even a short period. Nowadays, some of my favourite times are when I’m home alone. These times allow me to process all my emotions, to stop, think and be able to deal with things and move on, or get help. Something that really feeds my soul is talking about mental health, my experiences and what I’ve learnt. I think discussion around mental health needs to be normalised, so that it’s a standard topic of conversation, and so that people know it’s okay to talk. I’ve found that open, honest and transparent conversations about my mental health have massively changed my life and are so therapeutic.
If it was possible to send a note back to yourself when you needed the most help, what would it look like?